Positive!

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Positive!

Finally! 

The radiation therapy has ended! Time to pick up my life again. Recovery will be the first step. A long lasting and frustrating process. But the future results are the main driver for the recovery process;

- enjoying life with my wife, creating art, walking, cooking, reading, watching, eating, feeling and sex.

I would like to fill my life with art, open my mind and be creative. I have 3 new projects in my head. So be aware!! I will not only write blogs anymore...

But for now : recovery and rehab! Aim one: get my motorics back. So i am mobile again and being able to do the daily household stuff. If i am mobile again my motorics will be better and I can make photographs and paint if possible . 

But for now: relax and take it easy!

I leave it short this time in the hope of coming back strong!!!!

Dennis

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      Life after work…     It is the week after my exhibition at Kunsthuis Leiden and it is time to reflect.  It was one of the best things I have experienced in my life. This is all I wanted from my teenage years onwards.   When I was sixteen I decided not to go to the Art Academy. I was in love with Art but I did not want to live like an artist.  Only for the happy few this was a good living but for the remaining group it is a life struggle. I decided to keep it as hobby next to sport, study and later work.   It always kept me going in difficult times. I could express myself in the arts. In the beginning completely open minded later on influenced by other artists and art history classes, and much later tv and musea.   My goal was to create work that touched other people ‘for emotional tear’.   Now after all these years my dreams and goals came together. An official exhibition made available by  kunsthuizen.nl  .  I am very grateful for making this possible. The strange thing is that I did not do anything myself other than creating the art. Everything was arranged, I only had to show up. Strange because you want some involvement. Like I said, I would like to add something to this world. At work I always questioned what the fuck i was doing…weird it was that the more I had doubts, the more money i earned.   That was ok in the beginning but later on I decided to focus on a more social and enjoyable life where work is not the main driver but just support.  This happend also during the exhibition, a lot of people visited and bought a lot a my work. I am very proud of that, and the profit will  go to cancer research (a good initiative by kunsthuizen .nl). My work gives a contribution to humanity, makes people happy makes me happy. Life after work is good.

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Life after work…

 

It is the week after my exhibition at Kunsthuis Leiden and it is time to reflect.

It was one of the best things I have experienced in my life. This is all I wanted from my teenage years onwards. 

When I was sixteen I decided not to go to the Art Academy. I was in love with Art but I did not want to live like an artist.  Only for the happy few this was a good living but for the remaining group it is a life struggle. I decided to keep it as hobby next to sport, study and later work. 

It always kept me going in difficult times. I could express myself in the arts. In the beginning completely open minded later on influenced by other artists and art history classes, and much later tv and musea. 

My goal was to create work that touched other people ‘for emotional tear’. 

Now after all these years my dreams and goals came together. An official exhibition made available by kunsthuizen.nl .  I am very grateful for making this possible. The strange thing is that I did not do anything myself other than creating the art. Everything was arranged, I only had to show up. Strange because you want some involvement. Like I said, I would like to add something to this world. At work I always questioned what the fuck i was doing…weird it was that the more I had doubts, the more money i earned. 

That was ok in the beginning but later on I decided to focus on a more social and enjoyable life where work is not the main driver but just support.

This happend also during the exhibition, a lot of people visited and bought a lot a my work. I am very proud of that, and the profit will  go to cancer research (a good initiative by kunsthuizen .nl). My work gives a contribution to humanity, makes people happy makes me happy. Life after work is good.

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Exhibition!

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Exhibition!

Yes!! My biggest wish in life comes true! 

I will have my own exhibition in a professional gallery.

I am so proud that finally my art is acknowledged by outsiders. I have had exhibitions before, but they were only visited by my incrowd ( friends and family). 

The incrowd liked it, but you never know if they really appreciate it. At least that doubt is always in my head.

Now I will judged by the outside world, how exciting is that? 

I create stuff I like in the hope that others do to, only this invitation is already fulfilling my dreams. Lets see what comes next.

It is about appreciation and not about money. Of course it will be very nice to sell al my work but earning money is for later. Together with the gallery "Kunsthuis Leiden "  the turnover will be donated to the Daniel den Hoed Foundation, a clinic that is specialised in brain tumors. 

I have been treated there over the last few years so now I can give something back!

And for the ones who want to have a great feeling and already feel guilty that they have not climbed any mountains of do other unhealthy stuff to contribute to cancer-research in general, just buy a painting or picture and you compensate for your utter laziness. 

You will help the hospital ,me, the gallery and yourself.

I realise that This all could only happen with the help and support of Marc ten Brugge Cate who created a beautiful website and prepared my pictures for publishing. Next to Marc I would like to thank my wife Marie José for making this all happen, the trust,the space, the love and giving me the opportunity to be myself.

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History Repeats Itself

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History Repeats Itself

How is it possible that ‘The Dumb’ rule the world?

Rather a difficult topic to cover in a blog…but here we go…

History repeats itself; nobody has learnt any lesson from the past. However that is an incorrect statement. The 'bad' guys did. They are using the same tools as former leaders to establish their power.

It was easier when there were no schools and very little education( only for the happy few). People where not educated and could easily be manipulated. Unfortunately there are more ‘less’ educated people than educated people in the world. The big problem is that the educated people abuse the 'dumb' people to obtain and maintain their power. It happens in democratic countries and countries with dictatorship.

As there are more 'dumb' people so called ‘leaders’ are required to get their votes to maintain power. To get those votes they just shout what the ‘people’ want to hear, that goes for populist, religious and established more contemporary political parties. Just keep it simple. Solutions are not required because the less educated people are not aware of what is going on behind closed doors.  If it is going bad… ( doesn't matter what) It's never their fault but the Government’s, Islam, Police, Refugees, Moroccans or Pokemon. They are victims of their own stupidities.

So to get to power you need to get rid off the 'educated' people (Turkey currently and Cambodia and China etc..in the recent past). Their country or others will be destroyed and nobody will interfere. And if they act as the 'dumb' president George Bush elected by the ‘unknown’. They just fuck up everything . If he had not attacked Irak the world would have been a different place today.

Anyway my answer is : education, but education can lead to manipulation ,get rid off the current teachers (Turkey) and replace them by teachers who manipulate and feed the young with….more dumb content.

As long as the people in charge don't do anything about this, as they are part of the vicious circle, don't expect anything to change.

History will repeat itself.

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Here we go again...

The cancer has returned and is starting to grow again. Motorics, sight and mouth are affected and do not work properly.  A new medicine, a clinical trial, is ready to be applied under supervision in the hospital. This starts tomorrow and for a few days it will be administered at the Daniel Den Hoed clinic in Rotterdam.

You can think negative about cancer, but looking back i can see it brought also a lot of good and positive things. Not just for me but also for my surrounding . 

Negative experiences make you aware of all the good things in our lives.

You have to fight for a happy and healthy existence for yourself and your loved ones, and if possible fight hard for as many people, animals and nature as possible.  

Cancer made me realise what a beautiful life i have with my wife, friends and family. 

They say if something like this happens it shows you how people really are. Well i have to say that I am stunned and proud of all of them. It gives me such a good feeling that I am ready to win each battle. 

I do not have to work anymore, since 3 years, and that is a relief, not one day have I thought about it. Without the cancer I was still doing the same shit. I have started to pick up on my passion: painting and photography. Cancer gives me direction. In the end you will die. I am not afraid of dying I am actually exited. But you can do it only one time and there is no return. 

I know what I have and I am happy and I will fight for my life. I don't fight against cancer. Fighting for something gives you more motivation and a winning chance rather than fighting against something, that is negative and in the end you will lose as well.

If you fight for something you can lose but with a smile on your face. So I am ready to fight for life again with the emotional and spiritual support of my loved ones!!

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Poem....

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Poem....

I hope that the translation of this poem does not do any harm to the version of former Dutch comedian Toon Hermans. It is beautiful and covers the inspiration of my At Sea project.  

I hope you catch and absorb it.

 

I want to be alone with the sea,

I want to be alone with the beach,

I want my soul that flood away,

not my body and my mind.

 

I just want to dream a little,

about the things I do

and the sea, I'm sure,

she certainly know what I mean.

 

I want to be alone with the waves,

I want to be alone with the sky,

I want to listen to my breath,

I want to listen to my sighs.

 

I want to listen to my silence

then I will continue,

and the sea, I'm sure,

will my silence understood.

 

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Clumsy Stuff

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Clumsy Stuff

There are days that are just not working the way they should. Like earlier this week...working on an assignment and final touch on the basics of a painting, I stab the painting with the spatula All the way through. Normally you go to the first aid, but i have no insurance for stabbed  canvas . So they kicked me out and said if i returned they put me in a madhouse.

Ok now I have to recover the stab wound myself. First i called some experts and listened to their advice. After that I decided to do some thinking on my own. Again a lesson in the world of the artist.

So what to do? 

recover it and spent a lot of time with a non perfect result . 

leave it like it is and tell them it's part of the artwork.

leave it like it is and buy new canvas and start all over again.

I chose for option 2 and 3. If 2 fails I can start with 3. Learningfull experiences i just love the art and creativity. Out of every bad thing comes something good, whatever it is. Don't sit down and feel sorry for yourself. No. Go on and solve it. And if possible do enjoy it😄

F.ck Up # 1

F.ck Up # 1

F.ck Up #2

F.ck Up #2

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Zaal3

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Zaal3

Pop-up gallery suprise!

Last Sunday I was relaxing home alone and playing an online game. Suddenly MJ comes in and I need to change clothes and have a drink with a friend. 

Rob is having a party somewhere....... Why? I was 'looking good' and had no plans to leave the house. But i did obey (the punishment is cruel).

 So we arrived at Zaal 3 Theater. Still not aware of what was going to happen, until the moment I saw a painting by me and another and another! Confused i stepped into the café and I almost fainted. My family and friends standing and clapping their hands. I was  overwhelmed. But it was not done yet.. a complete collection of paintings and pictures where shining  from the walls.

I needed to sit down. Looking around and seeing who were there. Friends and family, people I had not seen for a long time where there. I felt very proud and happy to see them.       Looking at the walls and seeing the black and white pictures. I had not seen them before and started to realise what was happening.  How and by whom this was done, it was very well planned and executed, including the food ( Indo and Suri).

All my friends and family who kept their mouth shut.  I am still  consuming all the energy of this amazing Sunday. It gives me more power and self awareness. So thanks to you all! ( I have to stop now because there is so much to say and this is an art site not a book store...😄

Zaal3 Entree

Zaal3 Entree

The Artist known as Dennis

The Artist known as Dennis

New Black and White work

New Black and White work

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Cold outside....

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Cold outside....

So pleased as I was a few weeks ago about the effects of the first high temperatures an sunshine....now I am very happy and Inspired with the cold and winter outside. It's the speed of this change which makes me happy. Everything is different. Things change and you have to adapt quickly. Knowing that it will change again soon keeps you in the mood and allows me to do stuff i don't do with beach weather. It's the same with painting for me, I feel Inspired and start with an idea but with one mistake everything can change.         The moment for change has arrived.

Do I try to go back as I wanted or do I let it go and see how it is going to end up? I like this moment of change. All emotions come out. And the result? You never know, some people like it others don't.

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The First Real Beach Day

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The First Real Beach Day

Today is the first real beach day of 2016. We have tried before but today it felt real.         

The warmt makes me and a lot of other people come alive again. I can feel the joy and happiness after a boring and energy sucking winter. The great weather and being outside in the warmth of spring inspires me and forces me to be creative and positive. Due to the cancer i am limited in performing all the ideas in my head. But it also makes me more hungry to do new stuff and be flexible.  

Some things that are difficult for me to execute are done by my good friend Marc. At the moment we are updating and working on my website together and make it come alive and dynamic.

At the moment I am revisiting some old work that was stuffed away in my attic at the Vondelstraat. Amazingly there are some pieces that I really like. I am making them become alive and kicking again. 

There is a new series on the site of recent photography called Scheveningen Black and White. We need to name them and add some descriptions but it is new work and it inspires me to create more. All going to social media as well. 

Also working on new paintings that I will share with you soon. If the weather stays like this there is a lot more to come!

My first real journal entry. Promise a new one each week.

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